Sunday 5 October 2014

Rehearsal


Life is not a rehearsal. How many times have I heard that? Of course it’s still a true story and, as I romp through my 44th year, it has become an ever-louder nagging voice increasingly making its message known from the back of my subconscious.

My half-formed characters are screaming at me from the scrappy drafts that languish in the pits of my hard drive. If I don’t do something with them soon, they will be packing up their meagre possessions, escaping their stifled dungeon and setting off an adventure of their own choosing. Their fate was in my hands but there are many other writers’ imaginations out there, perhaps they will find their place through another pen.

Then there’s paint and colour and pattern and paper... Every time I pick up a paintbrush or look at a fellow artist’s piece of work, I feel this yearning deep within my soul to place art firmly in my working life. Why have I listened to the voices that would tell me I’m not good enough for so long? Perhaps they are the ones that deserve to be banished to a corrupted computer file.

But all is not lost for this particular biopic. The winds of change are finally wrapping their tendrils into my lethargy and pushing me forward into a new Act. Last month seemed like an awakening in many senses – most of all my intuition. I have focused more attention on my writing, rediscovering the joy of paragraphs that don’t require the corporate spin that pays my wages and the art-related business my friend and I have been slowly planning is almost ready for her debut performance.

I realised that I’ve turned up, learnt the script by heart, practiced and honed and even danced the boards in a series of dress rehearsals. It’s time to take centre stage and have my moment as the leading lady that I know I can become. Watch this space!

5 comments:

  1. Beautiful, beautiful artwork, Lisa and a FANTASTIC, inspiring post. Wow! So needed that this morning! I also loved your closing line - " It’s time to take centre stage and have my moment as the leading lady that I know I can become. Watch this space! " ---- YOU GO!! If anyone can do it, you can! :) xx

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  2. Bravo for you Lisa. Follow your bliss. Remember to enjoy yourself all along the way. I LOVE everything you already bring to center stage here.
    :-)

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  3. I know you are a wordsmith and an artist
    and you are fabulous at both!
    and gee...
    44 is so young!
    I love your painting here...looks like a bulb about to burst forth with new life!
    ♥ ♥ ♥

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  4. WOOHOO! *claps loudly and excitedly as the curtain rises* :D XXX

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